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i've been awake since fuckin FIVE IN THE FUCKING MORNING. i went to school in a bad ass mood. ms G was getting on my nerves. like seriously. the whole fucking leadership class went to the office to boycott about the graduation tickets. why was i there? i'm not even fuckin graduating. waste of MY damn time. SECOND PERIOD - adam kept putting spider stickers on me. i tried sitting down and paz pulled the seat from under me causing me to fall. she didn't do it on purpose. adam was laughing super hard so was ms G.. yeah okay it wasnt THAT funny geez. THIRD PERIOD if i hear NASDAQ one more damn fucking time.. I DONT WANNA LEARN ABOUT THIS SHIT.. WHEN AM I EVER GONNA HAVE A FUCKIN STOCK SHIT??! geez. FOURTH PERIOD. i fell asleep. and drooled on myself. LUNCH i sold for like 2 minutes. then sat down and ate. JOURNALISM rigo kept giving me his papers.. angelo's jacket is repelling me!! noo must spread my SARS!! and angelo's the victim muhahahahahahahah.. he took my phone =( so i borrowed his. kept swatting him. meanie face. oh yeah i kept kicking martin today too.. that was fun muhahaha. SIXTH PERIOD only like 2 people in there. wheee -___-
afterschool went to bethel to get a year book.. walked with ralphie ^_^ i missed that guy!!! saw audrey and james.. i was signing ralph's yearbook and audrey came up to me saying she'll be in the parking lot smoking if i needed her okay.. haha i kinda miss those days.. when i use to be with all of them =( but ... i hate bethel lol. i walked around the whole damn school looking for SOMEONE who was selling yearbooks only to find out THEY DONT ACCEPT CHECKS! MOTHERU#(*$WQU#$(*QU#$(*UW#(*$UW(*#U$ ARRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! FUCK!!!! so i have to come back thursday. JRIOWAHRouhrhrwhrew dammit. whatever. bitches. had taco bell .. tangi was there. that killed my day even more. bitch.
i'm going to sleep. today sucks. everyone.. just.. like.. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE today okay? i'm glad you understand.
OF THE DAY
doode in ms izzy's class yeahhhhh AMERICAN CANYON!!! there are five black people in AC.. and three live in my house
^ LOL hahahah good one
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"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." - 1 Corinthians 13:4 - 7
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[06 Jun 2003|02:36pm] |
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muhahaha omfg this song brings back some stupid memories.. stupid because of well, fuck you memories puhahaha. fucker. anyway.
leadership nawthin really.. martin kicked me.. or well what he'd like to call 'gently pressing his foot across my leg' weirdo. tiffany tossed me my shirt and tried to get to cover my head but she missed and it fell on the floor. i was leaning over and everything. smoooooth tiff. lol. no one was really in class. what the fuckness. math wrote, listenend to music, slept. wheee. computers DAMMIT MIMS I GIVE UP. i dont care about the stock market!!! i finished the NASDAQ stuff i just have to make my sentence into a paragraph lol dammit. econ v-dogg was coming up with 'consiperisies' about products lol shit was amusing though. 'why are DURito chip bags filled with air? so they wont break?' 'why are the mashmellow's in a see-thru bag but chocolate chip cookies arent?' 'why are tortia chip bags clear but potato chips arent?' and he was telling us how his son wont drink expired milk so he buys a new one, dumps that out and puts the old one in the new carton MUAHAHAH. smart ass shit. lunch sold. no, i was SUPPOSE to sell but i didnt. reese was pullin his lil water gun on people "WHAT YOU SAY? YOU ON MY TURF WHAT YOU WANT?" LOL hahahah. man. journalism ms feeley was saying to angelo "oh i thought you were filipino" and angelo goes "hell nah i dont got sars" and i was like *Glare lol and ms feeley was like "its not the philippines, its china" and angelo goes "same shit" and ms feeley was like "no, it's completely different.. we need some chinese people to show pride and stick up for their country" or something like that and i go "wh00! chinese pride!" hella dead and angelo goes "well, no pride here" hahahaha. typed.
it's friday and i'm staying home tonight. yay. -____-
C0NV0 0F THE DAY
*latoya signed reese's shirt saying 'congraduations on your graduation'
reese HAHA i aint graduating and i still get a congraduations haha I BEAT THE SYSTEM!
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| it's nice outside.. but i seem to be ignorning it.. |
[04 Jun 2003|04:56pm] |
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i was so effen pissed at my mom yesterday.. just because i came home early saying i was dizzy because I WAS.. she pulls me out of bed in the middle of my nap making me take blood out. i havent done that since i was like 12.. and last time i had it done they fucked up like 5 times. no seriously. so i was really iffy about having that done.. but i went anyway. i was too mad to even care anymore. after my dad got me jamba juice.
i started falling asleep at like 10.. i think i passed out.. all i remember was laying in bed and feeling REALLY REALLY sleepy and how it started to get dark [like the last time i passed out] but i tried to fight it.. i guess i passed out anyway cus i opened my eyes and i didn't feel it anymore. i swear passing out is the scariest feeling ever.
i fell asleep and woke up to my cell phone ringing at like 2.. it was jeff saying he's been waiting for my phone call.. cus i said i was gonna call him if i woke up.. and i guess he waited a whole five hours to see if i was or not.. i thought that was sweet.. i never had any guy wait for me to call.. i mean, he didn't have to.. but he wanted to which really got to me.
school was okay today. nothing new really happened. i kicked angelo. finally. lol. TAKE THAT ANGELO! damn, i'm getting tired of school.
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| whoO.. such a busy week! |
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man oh man.. last week was so busy.. but so damn fun! PR0M was okay they had CHOCOLATE COVERED STRAWBERRIES!! *Screams lol took pic's of course.. jeff wanted to take me to The Cheesecake Factory but the wait was like an hour and 15 minutes so we decided not to eat there.. everywhere else i found expensive. yeah yeah it's prom go all out and yada yada but damn $30 per plate all out? no, i don't think so. we danced once to the only slow song they played while we were there "Why i love you" by b2k i wanted to dance some more but he didn't want to. :\ i spent the night at his house.. SUNDAY we met up with jer at the metreon.. yeah it was just me, jeff and jer. kinda weird.. ate at denny's.. walked around, got jer cd's to burn me my cd, then he left.. me and jeff walked around a lil more.. looked in fcuk.. damn hella expensive.. then rasputin then back to walgreen's cus i had a headache and my jeff bought me motrin [aww]. we went back to metreon to get his magazine and i thought we were gonna go straight there and leave, but he made me take medicine first he was putting me to sleep on bart since i didn't feel very good and chilled at his house for a bit. then went to return his tux, but the place was closed so we went to buy food and watched tv in his room.. i slept over again that night too. MONDAY was mister jer's birthday. didn't get up till like one or so.. went to get food, came back, chilled.. jeff went to return his tux while i stayed in his room online and watching tv.. they played 2 linkin park music video's in a row.. omg i was like AHHH haha. jeff came back and made me scrambled eggs =] i took a shower and he helped me blow dry and comb my hair.
TUESDAY wheee got to school at 4:55 AM i was the first effen person there gawh! anyway, we didn't even leave for LA till like 6.. everyone was trying to find reese sticks. 8 hours of boredom bus goodness. got to LA, checked in, chilled for like four hours, ate at denny's then hit up disneyland. stupid disneyland closed at 8 so the rest of the night everyone chilled in everyone else's room.. played cards with adam while drinking sprite remix and watching south park. tanisha's crazy she was smoking weed out the window at like one in the morning.. and how'd kiyana get in the room? eh.. lol WEN. disneyland, midevil times.. yeah good times hehe chilled in adam's room watching tv and eating candy and talking about stuff.. marcelous was in the shower and he came out and started changing WHILE I WAS IN THE ROOM and armon came back to change his shirt.. lol i looked at both of them and i was like "i dont feel right being here, i'll go" haha man i love peoples high. they're so cool. but yeah. THURSDAY everyone said i was missing or some shit.. er iono anyway went to the mall.. yeah. tanisha's a dork. got home at like 11. FRIDAY stayed home.. ahh.. felt good to sleep in my own bed.
SATURDAY jeff came over we watched Finding Nemo that movie was so sad.. but at the same time cute.. hehe played ddr.. yah no bre\-/kdown this time.. took him to coldstones and had strawberry ice cream with banana and white chocolate chips *Yum uhms.. went to see Tiffany at work.. then went home and chilled for a while.. he ended up sleeping over.. we had a talk about stuff.. we made pizza and watched tv. SUNDAY didn't get up till like 12 or something i didn't wanna get up.. ate and watched sunday morning cartoons, then i got ready for work.. he stayed here at my house.. for like five hours while i was at work.. he came with my dad to pick me up.. my brother was buggin the hell out of us.. but whatever.. took us like 15 minutes to finally up and leave sheese!
Jeff i told the stars above that i love you
zeL what did they say back?
Jeff they said 'well then you're in love with the most beautiful girl in the world...'
he told me last night "i keep thinking you're the one" or something like that. yeah we have our ups and down's but what couple doesn't?
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| this weekend.... was the best |
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i can't really blog much, for fear i might wake up Jeff..
SATURDAY busy all day getting ready for prom.. got my hair done, then mommy wanted to take lots and lots of pictures, got his stuff, janice came by and picked me up. i got to jeff's already dressed and ready and stuff.. janice took MORE pictures, then we left for Pan Pacific. took MORE pictures lol. tried to kill three hours walking around, playing on the elevators, finding a place to eat.. we were walking around and i didnt know they had a big ass Disney store by union square.. omg HEAVEN haha yes yes all the lil kids looked at these 2 people walking around a DISNEY store in their prom clothes. realized we didnt have our ID's.. so my cousin came back, picked us up, drove us back to jeff's, go my wallet, and drove us to The Cheesecake Factory. i always wanted to eat there but damn there were hella people it was like an hour and 15 minute wait. soO we decided to just leave. took a cab back. i felt bad.. i mean i know he wanted to take me out to eat.. but i didnt want him to. i mean he already spent a lot on prom.. i dont want him to spend anymore yahknow?
the prom was arright.. lots of people i dont know haha. we took pictures of course and keychair pix and i look dumb in them -____- walked around.. ATE.. haha they had POT STICKERS omg. what kind of prom has pot stickers? *Drool haha. i wanted to dance, but jeff doesn't dance.. i tried to get him to dance. didn't work. damn. why'd they play dance with me / 112? gross. but we did dance ONE song.. "why i love you" by b2k. the first slow jam of the night. walked around some more, then came out with CHOCOLATE COVERED STRAWBERRIES omfg. lol it's like a dream come true.. FREE choco covered strawberries.. dammmmnnnnn haha. we left at like 1130 i think.. went back to his place and went to sleep *Snore
SUNDAY got up. took a shower, got ready and headed for metreon. we were walking past virgin and we were like "is that grace..?" and jeff was like "GRACE" and she looked and we said hi and stuff.. that was out of the ordinary.. but yeah.. it was just me, jeff and jer since sammie and jon all of a sudden couldn't go. nurrr. so we met up with jer, went to denny's.. ordered food, ate.. weird. then walked to EB.. spent like a while trying to find a place to go to that didn't have to do with money.. no such luck soO we went to buy jer blank cd's cus he ran out and he couldn't burn me my cd and he headed home. me and jeff went to fcuk to see what was there.. $135 for jeans that said "fcuk" on the back.. whoooo.. not my kinda store. went to rasputin, looked around.. headache got worse so we got on bart and he was all telling me to go to sleep.. for some reason i was hellllllla weak.. dammit. played a bunch of soul calibur 1.. went to stones to return his tux but they closed early.. went to get micky d's then back to his house and watched the rest of toy story. dammmit i'm hungry.. uhm.. i forgot what else then we went to sleep.
okay nvm i blogged about my whole weekend and my hes still asleep *Score haha but anyway.. i'm leaving the city tonight cus i'm leaving for LA at FIVE tomorrow MORNING yeah grad night to LA... i kinda wanna go, but i kinda dont.. i love disneyland.. i cant wait though.. i just dont wanna do the whole 8 hour bus drive thing.. oyeeee. i'ma bring HELLA cd's with me haha. this should be fun. it better be. haha okay i think i'll go now and get something to eat. L8er =]
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| i seriously hate the month of May |
[23 May 2003|03:06pm] |
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i found a shirt of yours i had hoped i lost a year & so ago.. i haven't exactly gotten rid of the things you gave though i have avoided seeing and touching them everyday.. but i when i stood there and actually looked at your shirt.. so many memories flooded back.. how you gave it to me the very first day we met.. how we only got to spend 40 minutes together but it was worth it.. june 16th 2001 that day will forever remain in my heart and mind.. no matter how hard i try to forget it.. the day you first kissed me..
i couldn't help but inhale the shirt and remember the hot summer nights i'd wear it to sleep while we'd spend all night on the phone.. consitantly inhaling it.. it was as close as i could get to you.. i remembered how you rubbed your old spice across the shirt when the smell of you faded away.. so that's how you made it smell like you! how i still have your old spice. and how i did the same thing you did so long ago.. i inhaled it all in one more time.. how i remember that smell.. the smell that made me sick cus it was so strong but at the same time i couldn't stop smelling it because it was you.. it reminded me of you.. it was as close as i could get to you
funny how an hour or so before all this happened, something triggered my mind about you and i got incredably mad.. i felt like lashing out and screaming. god i hate you. but at times i miss you. but i know we'll never be 'okay' again. we barely talk, we're no longer friends.. maybe after we broke up we never really were. maybe it was just all in my head.. you're the reason why i despise life, love, people, why i am the way i am now.. all because you took away something that meant so much to me.. it's been over a year.. it's been 2 years since we've met.. may 29th would mark two years if we were still together. i know i shouldn't care. and i don't. i think...
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ughh i'm not even gonna get into detail's but i stayed up till like three this morning fighting with jeff.. whoo nothing new there -____- i tried talking things out that he never wanted to talk about, but i couldn't take it anymore.. and we ended up getting into this big ass fight.. and he was saying that's why he never wanted to talk about it cus we always end up here again. i swear i didn't try to make it turn out like that. and so i hung up on him cus he said something hella wrong to me and he called back saying that prom was off. i was sooo mad. i know i didn't spend $200 for N0THiNG. and he was like "oh wow, i spent 300" and i was like if i paid you back would that make u feel better?" ooh i swear sometimes i cant stand him. and he's all saying how LJ is stupid, i swear he get's back into that. WHAT DOES LJ HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH US? oh my dear lord. and he was like "how you gonna like punk rock and rap? make up your mind!" and i'm like "it's called being OPEN MINDED" and hes like "it's called being FAKE" and he brought up something like "well if you dont wanna piss people off you should change" i know he didn't just tell ME to CHANGE. and i dont piss anyone else BUT him.
*AGGRAVATED SCREAM*
so i broke up with him.. i gave him the choice.. he calls off prom then WE'RE off too. and he got super mad that i'd let prom decide us. hey, he brought it up not me. sorry if i sound like a bitch but you would too if you fought pretty much everyday with your boyfriend over stupid shit and cant even talk to him about what's buggin you in the relationship without him freaking out. he say's i deserve better than this. i should listen to him. jeff was all saying "so what, you dont wanna fix this?" and i was like "..its too late" and hes like "so you dont wanna fix things" OKAY SO NOW YOU WANNA FIX THINGS HUH? WHEN SHIT IS TOO DAMN LATE? YOU'RE SO DAMN SMART. he's gonna yell at me, rip at the little self esteem that i have left that i worked so hard to get back, then when shit comes up too fucking late he wants to "fix things" what the hell. so we "fixed" things just for the sake of whatever. but i dont know how much longer i can keep going like this. one day i'll explode, then for sure it will be too late.
he realized he messed up. maybe he said it for pitty, maybe he said it cus he know's it's true. whatever he said it for, he better fix it. i'm not willing to sacrifice myself for him anymore. it isn't worth it anymore. i dont know what to feel, how to act nor what to say to him anymore. it isnt working out. i'll let time decide when to let this die.
god send me an angel from the heaven's above..
send me an angel to heal my broken heart from being in love
cus all i do... is cry
god send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes..
i know it might sound crazy but after all that i still love you
you wanna come back into my life but there's something that i gotta do..
i had to tell the one that i once adored that he cant have my love no more..
*Sigh..
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last night was really.. really.. funky.. leadership ms young took our pic's for our school ID's.. i'm in a room with tanisha and lashaye. i'd rather just stay with Ms. G. but yeah. dont really remember what happened first period.. math looked up the disneyland site with adam deciding on which ride's we're going on. i'm forcing him on the peter pan ride and "it's a small world" muhaha and he's forcing me to the haunted mansion and the indiana jones thingie. meh, i guess. damn we're soo hyped to go! haha computers i was suddenly irrated for some reason.. iono i really didnt feel like being there. blah. econ had my fourtune told. i swear no matter what the question is, the fortune usually ends up similar to the last one!! goshness talk about luck. lunch i was suppose to sell but zel was in a bad mood so zel sat and ate. yep. journalism gave angelo SARS haha i shared my snickers with him and he's like "hazel gave me SARS in my eye!" haha tight shit muahah. read and slept. i miss hot days like this.. that remind me of bethel and such.. well anyway..
after school went to rayles, bought lighers, went to walmart, got 2 cards.. i cant wait for this weekend! janice said she might drive me to jeff's house the night of prom cus i didnt wanna wear my dress on the ferry yahkno? i just need a ride there.. and yea.. hentai rules. i need another cd. i've been watching the same one over and over for 2 days straight now. blah. hehe.
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THURSDAY i found my prOm dress.. it's light purple with glitter.. it's pretty much a gown.. i <3 it!
FRiDAY school was arright.. i dont remember much.. except for during lunch angelo was watching me eat my burger and he was like "you're eating that too slow" and i was like "dont watch me eat" and i turned the other way.. and when i turned back to where he was he was like ALL UP in my face i was like "AHH!" lol and he was talking to rigo about some blue and red ants [in some video game they play] and i was like "really?" "no way" and he looks at me and hes like "i'll take that burger and eat it right in front of you" and i offer it to him and he takes it and hes like "hazel lick all your germs off here" and me, adam and rigo are like.. that didnt make sense and angelo started the whole "hazel has sars" thing.. he made that the classes journal topic -_____-
after school i went to the ferry building and waited for half an hour.. since i got there half an hour early. took the ferry to peir 39 since that was the first stop and i was suppose to meet jeff at powell anyway.. no one was at rta.. took the F to market.. walked around virgin and found jeff across the street.. gave him a big hug of course ^_^ walked to rite aid to get ice cream, walked around for a while cus i didnt know where i wanted to go and it was too late to go to japan town.. i tried to give him the money for my prom ticket, but he already bought it.. i was so mad haha i wanted to pay for it!! gerrr.. i saw PURPLE roses!!! ahhhh! okay anyway, took bart to his house, got kfc *Drool, kicked it.. around like 7 or 8 tony, sammie and jon came and picked us up. went to century talking about sex haha or well me and sammie were and porn and HENTAI lol there were too many people at cent so we just went to eat at denny's. i got a hashbrown and coke haha. that... was amusing... i accidently spilled jeff's soda -_____- we kept biting eachother, sammie soaked jeff's pancakes in the surup cup [gross], jon would be like "i dont want it" *nods* they finished our food for us hahah you guys are cool. dropped off jon, then jeff, then went to sammie's house where i chilled on MY chair haha. tony was playing with the hamster and sammie was online. funky yet cool. tony left, went to sleep.
SATURDAY woke up like 5 times.. bleh. i guess jeff was kinda mad at me when i called him or something.. got ready, went to DC bart, met up with jon, got on bart, saw jeff, me and sammie tried really hard to open those sliding doors, found him, sat next to him and brought him over to where we were sitting.. got off at embarc. took the F to peir.. went to rta, saw people there, lots of people. i wanted a B3 shirt.. saw kristy, brad, jeff, brian, nado when we were leaving, walked to in and out but on the way there they were giving out free pizza *Yum, ate in and out outside.. me, sammie and jeff were sitting at one table just talking and stuff.. walked back, stopped at Rainforest Cafe and jon ate there.. me and sammie got root beer floats, jon got a sampler.. oh man that chicken with that sauce and the cheese.. HEAVEN lol. fixed jeff lol. oh man, that was funnnn.. jeff was getting annoyed at the "volcano" guys and hes like "i swear i'ma sock one of them in the face" and i gave him a sword and he was like.. madd playing with it.. that shit was sharp though.. stupid PLASTiC sword. haha he kept playing around so i was like pretending to stab him in the dick and the waiter passed up laughing and shaking his head at us. went back to peir, tried to watch the tourny, saw jer and i didnt even know it was him. how sad lol. played my baby at soul calibur and i kicked his ass =P but i think he let me win.. erf. sammie and jon wanted to walk around after a while.. so got jeff and we went to the dolphin store.. yes the oh so famous dolphin store that holds many memories for us.. and its the only place in peir i know that has dope ass couches haha.. cj called, jeff wanted to go back to rta so i let him. he say's he's tired, so i brought him there, then he says he wanted to go to rta so whatever. they kicked us out so i went back to rta and watched the tourny.. too many people got in my god damn way. fuck you damn people. jon told me to go outside.. we left, i didnt know where we were going so i kinda lagged behind.. took the F to market.. yes, we'll make the "i hate people" club.. and we're not "people" we're "friends"! went to the mall, then to build a bear, jeff was obviously not talking to me.. i sat in front of him and waved and he rolled his eyes at me.. so i went outside and sat on the floor and cried. bleh. i saw him looking for me so i just hid more. didnt really feel like being around ANY0NE. sat next to build a bear after a while.. jeff kept trying to pull me up and i kept pulling away from him.. and i told him i was gonna go home.. and he wouldnt let me go.. he'd just look at me, but not say anything.. *Sigh.. sammie and jon left.. so it was just me and jeff.. i cant look at him and just walk away.. he's fuckin everything to me.. *Sigh.. so i hugged him..
we went to his house and he cooked me won ton soup =D yesss my baby made me dinner! and we watched home improvement. gave him a back massage, he gave me one too and a neck massage.. i pop my neck too much which forces it to be tense.. very tense.. watched Charlies Angel's.. and i was like "did you really get me something for our anni?" and he took it out and it was a bear holding a little bear and he was like "this means a lot to me" and i was like "why?" and he's like "cus this is me *points to big bear* and this is my baby *points to little bear*" and i was like awwww! his dad drove me to the ferry building and that super cool bus driver lady was there.. jeff spent some time with me on the bus before we left.. bleh i didnt wanna see him leave.. another six days before i got to see him again.. but its all worth the wait ;] i love my honey..
i have work today. bleh! haha stupid work.. next saturday is prom *Yipee* i cant wait! i still need to order a garter and stuff.. yick. i don't know how. bleh. okay me hungry, so me go. ^_^
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LOL i had a dream about Will last night. it was at RTA and he was making fun of me and i got annoyed so i raced him in initial D.. except it was called initial J O_o and i won!!!! haha and his cell phone case was made of fruit roll up but he had a gummie mario IN his phone case and i was like "how do u not eat the mario" and hes like "like this" and he rips off a peice of his phone case and eats it and i'm like "ohh smart"
then my baby wakes me up at 728.. 2 minutes earlier than usual and i almost die of a heart attack cus my phone was ringing too loud. and i called him at like 2 in the morning cus i woke up [and i hate waking up in the middle of night.. scares the fuck outta me] and told him i was scared and hes like "dont be scared honey, go back to sleep okay?" awww thanks babe *mwah* what would i do without you?! and i read a text he read an hour before that replying to the one i sent him in class.. omg he's so damn sweet hehe wheeeee i've never been happier!! =] and he went to school today *yay! eww this corndog is getting yucky.. bleh. kay. byebye!
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leadership stapled and copied more grad night packets wheeee! adam told my fortune again.. then he told martin's.. he came up with the devil card haha 'you're gonna die AND you're going to hell!' math 'did my work' bsed the whole thing.. tried to use my cell's calculator.. ms G spotted me. DAMMiT! lol read the rest of my book and she came up to me like "hazel" and i was like "i'm done ms G *Smile" haha THAT'S RiGHT! computers surfed the inet.. dont exactly remember what i did.. but eh whatever. econ stock movie *Snore lunch kicked it in Ms G's room with people who were selling.. like martin, shavon, dante and reese. called my baby<3 martin tried to get the staples in my cup of noodles ;[ meanie faceeeee!! journalism that class rocks~! adam kept whacking me with books.. angelo kept bugging me.. everytime he said my name, i'd say his. he's meannnnn *Cries haha damn you angelo! but yeah he's cool. work ex she let us out early.
got Taco Bell, went home, told Ms. Ferrell i'll be there on thursday instead of today. too tired. too damn hot. took a nap for a while, then a nice refreshing shower.. and here i am.. wondering where my baby went..
C0NV0 0F THE DAY
angelo hazel
zel angelo
angelo hazel
zel angelo
angelo hazel
zel angelo
angelo hazel hazel hazel hazel hazel hazel hazel hazel
zel MS. FEELEY! ANGELO IS BUGGING ME!
adam, angelo and nicole *Laughs
Ms. Feeley say it more meaningful hazel
zel .... HE STARTED IT!
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[13 May 2003|08:14am] |
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last night was pretty cool haha. me and my baby both took an hour and a half nap at like six.. he called back at 730 to wake me up. went online, andrew sent me a link to linkin park Shoes omg i was freaking out soo damn bad~! haha LiNKiN PARK SH0ES?!! i was gonna dieee! i wanna join the LPU thingie too and i so would if i still had money in my account.. but i blew most of it buying a linkin park fit. nurr. it's okay.. hehe maybe later =] andrew was like "yeah me, val, you and your boy should double date" haha good idea! but yeah.. i ran outta deoderant this morning. that sucks. anyways, i madd want those shoes.. *Droolage
my babes finally got his Soul Calibur cd's [with the art book!!!] and he must have put the cd in a plastic bag to keep the dust off it muhaha trying to find a safe place to put it. he's so cute ;P so dorky.. but cute hehe i love that guy to peices~! slept somewhat early last night. i suddenly out of nowhere started getting tired. i hate when that happens..
ah, well. time to end post hehe L8er
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[11 May 2003|08:24pm] |
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FRiDAY was me and my baby's 2 month anniversary so after school i went to pick him up from the ferry place.. then we went to pick up carlo and he came with me to talk to my old bio teacher and was amazed at how 'big' Bethel High is O_o uh, i guess.. then we went to micky d's to buy my brother food and jeff was apperently mad at me.. and my brother was like "what's with this awkward silence?" *Sigh.. then we went to my house and things werent exactly peachy. ended up crying and having this conversation about how i think that everything i do or say is wrong to him. bleh.. these passed two weeks have been hell with all the fighting en shit.. i couldnt hold it anymore..
we ended up going to the mall.. spent some time at tilt he had a winning streak going on.. then went to hot topic and i got a linkin park shirt, a set of linkin park buttons, some bracelets and 2 FREE linkin park posters =D oh and a sugarcult shirt wh00! we were at the mall for like.. three hours.. it didnt feel that long.. ran into my uncle bill =] that was cool. my baby tried to make me eat the rest of my chicken.. and hes like "here, eat this one.. it's an L.. for lazy" haha d0rkio.. i was laughin for hella long. then we went to scandia to see who was there.. no one.. well dean was there. but yeah..
then we went to blockbuster at like 10 at night and rented this one movie he wanted me to see. went home and watched the movie.. it was really good "count of monte crisco" good movie. didnt go to sleep until like 130 or something.. he came up to my room to tuck me in and kiss me good night =]
SATURDAY woke up at like... seven.. an hour later than i usually wake up.. my baby was still sleeping when i went downstairs so i got in the blankies with him and held him eventually waking him up hehe and we rested for a while, then watched tv.. spent forever to finish eating, got ready and went to the mall with my family again.. of course we went to tilt first! haha i played 2 games of ddr and soul calibur with my babes.. i won.. i think he LET me win O_o but whatever haha went to hot topic AGAiN and i got a linkin park hat and a linkin park patch.. then bought this "707 players code" shirt that i've been wanting for like.. ever.. yep! walked around .. then went home.. ate, watched the movie again, i made up my "turkey rolls" which is like.. turkey slices with cheese inside and mayo.. man they're good. shut up, they are! chilled at home being online and playing video games.. stupid mario cart hates me.. blah! baby kept getting first and i kept getting seventh dammit!! lol he started to not feel good so at like seven we were laying in bed and i was holding him and he fell asleep, then i fell asleep and when we both woke up we were tired as fuckkkk. i went to get him some water, and i got juice.. we got to the ferry place and the cool bus driver lady of course recognized us hehe said out byes.. he called me to keep him company on the bus.. =]
i hate how we've been fighting A LOT lately, but i think this weekend changed all of that.. i love my baby sooo damn much and i dont know what i'd do if i were ever to lose him.. *Sigh.. maybe if we do all the fighting in the beginning then there'll be nothing left but to be nothing less than happy later
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today's me and my baby's 2 month anni ^_^
leadership for dry eyes ahah nothing really happened.. marcus was messing with the camera and accidently took a pic of himself shame.. math went online and signed up for gothictears.com that site r0cks.. me and adam looked around homestarunner.com and we were looking at the strong brad cartoons.. the dragon one's the best we were crackin up haha hella funny computers looked thru the inet.. i didnt finish my work yet. meh so? econ wrote and listening to see.dee lunch dont remember.. what did i do?? erf. journalism typed up some stuff.. angelo was like "see you're not typing fast enuff" and i go "angelo go away...!! rahhhh!" gerrrr0wl! hehe and i had my head down and he was standing over me going "ms feeley ms feeley" over and over and i was like "ange-rahhhh!" haha and i was like "MS FEELEY THEY'RE BOTHERING ME" hella loud.. oh and adam violaded my sprite remix causing me to 'cry' haha. ALL HAIL THE ALMIGHTY SPRITE REMIX I SAY! O_O!! AND NO IT IS NOT WATER! HOW DARE YOU INSULT THEE SPRITE REMIX!! DAMN YOU TO HELLLLLLLLLL! *ahem* anyway. haha
all is said and done, i will go and calm down and eat my wonderful jack in the box food ahh how i love thee cheese *Droolage* wheeee!
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[08 May 2003|02:49pm] |
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leadership had to go to brown's room cus of testing.. watched the rest of "here on earth" math still in brown's room.. read the my book & listened to my cd.. computers surfed the inet.. didn't really do anything.. read old funny convo's ahh, the good ol' days.. *Sigh econ adam read my fourtune again.. i think i'm getting a LITTLE too into tarot card readings.. yeah.. just a little.. today's fourtune? i'm gonna lose a friend in a year or so or maybe less.. and the one that always comes up.. i'm gonna step back from everyone and everything and try to find myself.. i swear everytime i TRY to find myself, i end up losing myself again.. geez. lunch ate, didnt really talk to anyone.. did i mention that DAViD GETS ON MY NERVES?! journalism seemed like angelo was going insane. computer broke so i couldnt use it. my friend called me in class.. then my dad did too.. why the hell is my dad calling me.. AT SCHOOL. geez. *Smacks forehead. gosh darn.
afterschool i paid my phone bill.. whee got that out of the way.. i think next time i pay for my bill, i'll get the nokia phone too.. i don't like the ericson one.. its yuckified. bought lychee white rabbit which i just now remember about.. went to target and bought tropical sprite remix, the seluna cd & drumline dvd. =]
lol why'd my friend just call me saying "hi, wanna call my house" dork haha
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[05 May 2003|02:13pm] |
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SUNDAY; work was okay. chris said hi to me and had that smile on his face and i was like "you're evil" and hes like "nice way to greet someone.. i havent seen you in a week and you call me evil" puahah. nano must have asked me 'so when are we gonna go on a date?' i looked at him like uhhhh never and he's like "aww why not?" and i was like "i have no time." and hes like "you can't find the time to go see a movie and maybe dinner after?" FiRST of all, i have a boyfriend so you'd have to get HiS approval before anything and SEC0ND of all, i don't go for older guys so *Shrug i don't know what to tell you dawg. i worked for seven hours, having no time to sit down except for on my break. you bet i was madd fuckin tired when i got home. on the way home my dad told me that my uncle who was in a coma for a few days passed away... and how he was just talking to him last week and he sounded so happy.. and now.. he's gone.. it's such a trip how one day you could be talking to someone and they could sound like everything's fine and the next thing you know.. you'll never hear them again.. it's kinda scary..
leadership Ms. G's back.. not much happened.. me and martin crowed around the computer as usual with adam online. martin kept trying to give me 15 cents wdh. and somehow it ended up under the computer desk and i couldnt get it out. dammit. he kept messing with me.. like punching me but playfully so i punched him back. haha. punkass. math i got to go online *yipee* and i made a graphic.. i got scriptina to work on that computer, but it won't work on mine which i think is SHiT. stupid font, you'll get yours. computers mims isn't back yet.. surfed the net for a while.. came across some good icon communites.. i wish i had skills like that. dang. econ wrote.. and wrote.. and wrote.. lunch martin had Long John Silver and he offered me some. i think it's nice that he always offer's me food cus i don't really eat at school. the food there is CRAP. and he was trying to talk me into killing myself again and when i agreed with him he's like "no hazel, dont do it. i'm kidding" and i was talking to shavon about boyfriends and us telling them we're gonna kill ourselves and martin's all telling her "yeah i try to talk hazel into killing herself but when she agree's i think about it and i dont want her to do it" aww hehe angelo looks like some guy who'd be on a street corner startin shit with someone. david get's on my last damn nerve. gerrrr! journalism came up with a poem. yep. rigo and angelo are weird. tsk tsk. i <3 school. wish it wasn't about to end *Sigh.
i have a dentist appt. today. still pretty depressed. *Sigh. i don't know what the hell's going on with me anymore. everything seem's so.. i don't know. i dont want anyone asking me what's wrong anymore because honestly i dont think i know anymore.. so hey i'll try to act happy. then maybe yah. *Shrug. leave me here to lose myself in the only things that help me.. my music & my writing..
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i'm tired and sleepy as fuck.. and my friend is over here saying that The Great Mall is fun because cyberhunt is there. gawh i hate that place with a deep burning passion. fuck you ch. dammit louie go away. shit. my mom wants to go to the mall today.. i wanna sleep like there's no tomorrow. i was sick last night for a hot second. felt like i had a fever and i couldn't breathe from crying and i felt like the shit that shit shit's out.
i joined go-gaia. last night lol and j0ey im's me with "OMG I CANT BELIEVE YOU JOINED GAIA!!!!!!" like five seconds after i fixed my profile. geez talk about quickness. omg i'm tireddddddd as fuckkkkkkkk. everyone leave me alone. it's nice outside.. weather man said there was gonna be lightning how dare he lie to me and get my hopes up. fucker, never again!! NEVER AGAiN!!!! -_____-
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| life is getting harder to live.. |
[02 May 2003|11:29pm] |
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dont wanna try dont wanna try cus all we do is fight.. i feel sick, depressed and alone. i'm cold but hot. my tummy's bubbling and i don't know why. i ate today.. what's the problem? i feel light headed and dizzy. not to mention i feel like my boyfriend doesnt give a shit about me. i'm not even gonna get into that because of reasons that he's already stated. so whatever. is there anywhere i can write my feelings out? *Sigh.. today.. was shit. well it was okay till i got home. then it was shit. life is shit the end. *Sigh.. i don't know anymore. i seriously don't. i'm depressed again nooo.. it's sucked me back in.. and we meet again my friend.. i feel like smoking and drinking starbucks all morning like the cool 18 year old's with cars.
what am i gonna do tomorrow? maybe mope around and TRY to do something productive.. cant call in work sick, i plan to do that in 2 weeks. when i spend the weekend in hayward with my cousins. well my one friend made things a bit better. thanks doode what would i do without your crazy ass? haha so you gonna hook me up with that pretty vibrator with your letter carved on it? HAHAHA funky ass shit. that's sick doode. sick. haha but yeah. man. i feel like crap. blah.
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